::sungguh.aku.rindu.dia::

i miss you

oh.i do.my dear.
a.minute.a.second.a.hour

*oh.damn me again!*dunno whether i should write it here or not.. but.. hey **a*.. i miss you..
last night.. u came into my dream.. again and again..
*da basuh kaki pun kamoo datang lagi..ish!*
memories remains..
you and i.. together..
.laugh.share.eat.makejokes.holdinghands.hugs.
.cry.fight.angry.eyeintoeye.smile.

again.. in my dream.. i saw you.. too near with me.. but i cant hold on to you.. i tried and tried.. but i cant.. there's someone beside you.. and that someone is *she* not *he*.. meaning, that someone was not your friend.. she's holding your hand like i used to do before.. she's your someone.. she is.. oh... i wanna kill her.. i came near.. nearer and nearer.. and you were far far away from me... lost... i'm alone... here.. alone.. **a*..

miss you superduper lah. miss the way you treated me as a princess in your heart.. as your only baby.. as your only sayang.. miss the way you talked to me.. miss the way you comforted me when i'm down.. miss the way you wanna slap me too..*just want kn..?* miss the way you get mad at me.. miss the time we walked together at the beach.. miss all our plans to get married together.. have a dozen of babies.. miss to have talk with you.. miss to laugh with you.. miss to see your smile.. and overall.. i just miss you..

*oke.saya tahu saya tak patut ingat die.. slap me for that my friends.. please.. cause i keep missing him.. over and over again.. and here... right now.. writing this post..oh!*

it's not that i didnt try to forget you.. i do.. i met many guys after you.. but my heart doesnt love them.. any of them.. but.. oh.. too many to tell.. stop! dunno why i wish that you could read this.. hurmm..

*saya tahu saya setupid*

~oh.memory.. oh **a*.. please.. let me go.. and heart.. please let him go.. oke heart..??~

remember he's with someone else now.. stop thinking of him..

.stop.fatiha.stop.

p/s: i'm writing this because of her.. uhuuuu.. kamoo.. sudah nie.. for you, i bertabah mengarang ini..
and.. sorry everyone.. ter'emo' jiwa kacau plak pepagi nie..
*sobsobsob*

~eh.saya tidak menangis.selesema saje..~

nota chenta: mencintai tak semestinya memiliki.. bahagiamu.. bahagiaku.. lepaskan hati.. lepaskan..

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